By the time I am writing this post nearly three months have passed since I wrote something this deep, and even though it might seem like little time, lots of things have happened in my personal and academic life. In my previous post “My Goals, Challenges, and expectations for Language 7”, I referred to some events that worried me at that time, for example, my grandmother having a delicate surgery, my discomfort, and expectations regarding the academic course of our program.
This semester, my girlfriend had serious medical issues and, to be honest, I felt horrible because of all the things that could happen. I usually don’t overthink that much when it comes to myself, but I was not ready for something so complicated. Thankfully, she was treated in time but it took a lot of time for me to see her again because she had to be in the hospital for nearly two weeks.
As for the semester regarding my perspective on studies, I believe that I started the academic course on the wrong foot because I felt so lost in my thoughts and the content. At first, it was complicated for me to organize myself, and at some point in time, I was really detached from my responsibilities. Fortunately, I got back on track after a couple of weeks thanks to a deep conversation with my mother regarding my worries about our house expenses. It helped me and made me feel relieved.
Regarding my perspective about myself and the current expectations for the rest of the year, I think that I have managed to take back my interest in pedagogy and English as well. I feel content just thinking that there are 5 or 6 months left to end my professional studies so I can finally get my degree as a certified English teacher.
As a final idea, I really feel grateful for everything. Life may seem hard but the treasure is in the bloom. Light needs dark to exist, cold and hot, and so do happiness and life experiences overall. If I ever had the chance to talk to my past self, I would suggest to myself to be more responsible and to really learn about personal and professional aspects of life earlier than I did.
Thank you for accompanying me through this journey, and most importantly, I give thanks to our teachers who have been emphatic with our classmates who have had trouble with personal issues, and with our learning process overall.
